I have a weird thing going on.
I have this knowledge that I am damaged. I carry a lot of pain from a less-than-wonderful childhood and a lousy adolescence. The trauma from my early life caused me enormous problems as an adult that I’ve been dealing with for three decades. It’s no wonder that I am damaged.
At the same time however, I’m not terribly worried about it. I’m not overwhelmed with grief or sorrow.
I think the lack of negativity has something to do with the years I’ve spent in therapy and the fact I meditate. I’ve overcome some truly high hurdles. For example, I quit drinking and came out of the closet when those were monumentally difficult tasks. I survived. If I managed to live through those upheavals, I can live through this stuff, too.
So, I’m not a stellar example of a well-adjusted man. So what?
I kind of like this weirdness.