I got up early as usual. I noticed right away that I wasn’t feeling buoyant. I felt low. My negative self-talk was running, and I was trying to counter it as best I could.
I was able to meditate for a good long time, and that made me feel very good. I crashed after, though. Came back down to the low feeling.
I was struggling all morning. I did not take a walk. I just couldn’t do it. I didn’t make my bed either, which is out of character for me.
All this is due to the stress from my recent loss. I’m having good days and bad days. Sometimes they are good hours followed by bad hours.
I made the determination to come to work no matter how I felt today, so I’m at work. Right now, I feel flat, not good and not bad. I think being at work is a good thing. I have tasks to perform, and that takes my mind off my situation.
This blog is about solutions. I don’t know which solution is working today, but I’m walking through my difficulties. Just walking through it.